Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Dude! I'm Not Particularly Happy About my Mom Hijacking my Trip!

So, I wouldn't say that my mother and I have a complicated relationship. I would say my relationship with my mother is complicated. My mother is happily oblivious to the fact that the world really doesn't revolve around her, and that her actions are in fact very offensive at times. I am grumpily not oblivious to these lovely facts. I try to let it roll off my back, and I do love her dearly, but sometimes you just gotta get it out.

My wonderful, sweet, hilarious, beautiful big sister bought me a plane ticket last week so that I could fly to Colorado & visit her, my bro-in-law, and my beautiful niece. I am so eternally grateful, and can't wait to see them tomorrow. But, dude! I'm not particularly happy about my mom hijacking my trip!

Sissy called my mom solely out of excitement to tell her that we'd be visiting with each other for the 1st time in 6 months, and the first words out of Mom's mouth are, "Great! I'll see if I can get your father a plane ticket up from New Mexico that weekend!" And here my sister is just like "Uhhhh....OK." My sister paid nearly $500 for my ticket so that I could be there Friday, Saturday & part of Sunday. Not exactly a long trip. My sister is a school counselor, her husband doesn't make a great salary either. My mom? Over six figures. She could fly to Memphis to see me, or spend her own damn money and buy me a ticket, but instead she hijacks my two day long trip for herself.

Don't get me wrong. I am very happy to see my parents for the first time since December 2008, but really? Did it have to be the one weekend I am going to get to see my sister & niece? I haven't seen that cute little baby in 6 months. I'd like to spend some quality time. Instead, I get 1 day of uninterrupted time with them.

I have a few more Mommy Blogs ready to go, but I'll disperse them at different times; I don't want to overload y'all.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Shake Things Up

Have you ever felt like you just needed to shake things up? Like you just desperately need some kind of change to occur, and fast? I have that feeling so bad right now. Everything is so stagnant, everything is always the same. I get up, I shower, I go to the soul sucking job where I do the same monotonous tasks over and over, I come home, play with the dog, eat, Boyfriend comes home, we watch some TV, then we go to bed. It starts all over again the next day. Sometimes the order of things after work changes around, but pretty much it's the same routine every day.

Sometimes I wonder if the longing for change is a control thing. I have no control over anything in my job. I go in, and do my rote tasks, and wait for other people to tell me other rote tasks that need to be completed. In a way my ex-husband still controls my finances, since he talked/prodded me into buying a car I can barely afford, therefore I'm usually pretty damn broke. I go home to a wonderful man that I love very much, but who is not my husband, and I long so much for him to be my husband. Another thing that is completely out of my control. I live in a city that I had no intentions of living in for 8 whole freakin years but alas, I am broke, and don't want to leave Boyfriend so moving will only come with a new job for him. For now, none of these circumstances will change.

Now some may say, "Hey! That still sounds like a damn good life" and it is! Don't get me wrong. I am just a person who thrives on change, and new challenges and experiences. There is nothing new. Ever. And so contemplating how to make NEW happen. I guess I'm going to cut and/or color my hair. Superficial, but change nonetheless.

P.S. Any suggestions on the hair?